October 2010
I didn't go to school.
I have been slacking so so so so much!
I am going to work though. I left the lemons out last night, I’m sure I’ll get a talk about that.
I love my job though… Anyways….God is so good.
God is so so so so good.
Last night.
After work, I went to After Dark. All I can say is that it was good. I let go of something I needed to do. I forgave. Now I can heal.
I let go of the biggest burden I’ve had. I’m free now. I will not pick that back up!
:)
Life is good. I’m realizing the things I need to do.
Job shadowing yesterday was a blessing.
I’m happy.
Thank you Jesus.
I feel like last night, I let go.
I let go of the dream…and I’m so happy. I have the most amazing bestfriend Beth Gibson who encourages me soo much! The healing begins. I”m putting all trust in the Lord, all my hurt is in him. It is finished.
Job shadowing today!
I have to be there in an hour..I”m not even ready yet:) it’s okay though.
I’m just glad I don’t have to go to school. I wish I could just sleep :)
I desire Nicaragua tonight.
The team that was there came back Saturday, I just can’t get those lovely Nicaraguan people out of my mine. I am in love with that place.
I done
believe the lie that I’m not good enough. I am. God created me good enough. No ignorant, selfish boy, that I think of highly will tell me other wise…or make me think otherwise. He might not ever realize what he’s doing, the damage he’s done, but I pray God changes in him so that no girl will ever feel that way. He’s really an amazing guy…some girl will...
my heart is just broken.
For so so so so much.
Unselfish and selfish reason.
I guess you could say I”m a mess.
today.
I have missed you alot.
We’re falling apart, and I miss that. I was doing so good.
I love you.
I want :
Good food. to go to amazing acres today. a lemon berry slush. my bestfriend to not be drifting away. gas in my car. to dye my hair. new make-up
Some of these I will obtain…. some things I won’t.
Tonight was really weird.
I’m going to sleep. Goodnight.
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Tomorrow:
I am going to finish straightening my hair, work, movie night with Beth and Kelli.
Sunday: Church, amazing acres?
Yeah yeah.
Sounds so good… now to catch up on tumblr posts.
I'm going to straighten my hair.
Before I stab my eyes out because of my mother.
I just can’t handle some things in life.
Tell me YOUR Holy Discontent.
What is holy discontent?
Pretty much what wrecks you. Like makes passion and fury inside of you come alive, almost to the point of anger ( the good kind) that makes you want to change it. Something that you passionately want to change. Something you live to change.
So what is your holy discontent?
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Everything would be different if I were more thin....
I don’t care about weight, my sister is so skinny and weighs more than most boys.. we’re big boned girls, but I just want to be confident, more healthy and pretty.
So I’m starting a change in my life tomorrow. Going running everynight and changing my diet.
Seriously.
I am going half a day again :)
I’m worn out. I have to work tonight. I’m getting so lazy. Going to McDonalds for lunch..yup, I’m just lazy!
I'
Just now going to school. :)
Why am I in so much struggle?
Going to sleep.
Pray for me.
I don't feel good enough.
I’m struggling with depression, again. I’ve cried several times today. I’m just done with myself. I need to just give it up and allow God to move in me.
Why am I struggling with this so much?!
I hope you all had amazing nights.
I’m going to sleep. School tomorrow. grr. It’s alright, I should probably get out of this house. I’m going insane. I might not be friends with my bestfriend tomorrow. I will be devastated. It’s all his choice, God is in control though. Tomorrow might be rough. Pray for me? I love you all so much!
Night.
I'm falling apart.
Well, I’ve actually fallen apart already. Now I’m just trying to pick up the pieces. God has blessed me so much the past couple of weeks. I’ve made new friend, felt so much of God’s love, and stopped thinking about diet stuff. I just need to stop thinking about this one boy, who right now I’m talking with about not even being friends. I’m struggling, but...
I have felt really alone all day.
Weird feeling. Bad feeling. It makes me sad. I wanna lay in bed and cry. I’m such a cry baby. I don’t feel well. I just want you to love me the way I love you- you said you’d laugh if that ever happened. Depression.
Pray for me.
I just go paid yesterday,
but by the time I pay my phone bill and put gas in my car I’ll be broke again….well not exactly broke. It’s not fair that I work, my sister drives the car, and I pay for the gas. I don’t make enough money to pay for gas for two people to be driving a car. My mom says it’s perfectly fair, they’re going to think perfectly fair when I start having my friends take...
I was going to stay on tumblr.
But I’d rather go to sleep. I love my friends, I love my life.
I work tomorrow.. oh yay!
well, tumblr is dead.
I work at three.
Yay, that’s the plan. Work. I don’t want to go back to school monday. It’s been such a good two weeks.
Anonymous asked: Prayer request: for kayla stinson's baby.
So I'm not in bed yet.
nicoledml:
lyndsaydodd:
I’m confused, a little hurt, but I think it’s because it’s 12p.m.
I wanna just sleep and cuddle.
You mean 12 am? Lol
HAHAH.
Yes, I mean 12 am! :) I need sleep.
So I'm not in bed yet.
I’m confused, a little hurt, but I think it’s because it’s 12p.m.
I wanna just sleep and cuddle.
prayer request.
My church is sending a trip to Nicaragua tomorrow morning. Amazing. I am so so jealous, but I’ll be there soon enough. Pray for their safety, and that God can move move move!
I love Nicaragua.
I'm really loving my life.
Now to eat something and sleep. I’m worn out.. work tomorrow?
I love my job, the girls, my boss.
I am so so so so blessed!
Tonight.
Was actually great. We didn’t do a picnik and I didn’t see my bestfriend, but I did hangout with the most amazing girls I know! We went ghost hunting and to Crazy George’s bridge, and to the Witch burial place like around the corner. It was fun. The only scary part was at amp&ramps because Hans had James(the guy who works for him) scare the crap out of us. Then, someone...
going to take a shower.
then to have a picnik,
then to the skate park for hauntedness. Love you all.
watching the event.
Already in love with it.
I've cleaned.
My car and room in 45 minutes. If you had seen them both you would really think highly of me now :)
I love cleaning day. Stress gone.
Going to the basement of amps&ramps tonight and to...
With the girls from work. Hans and his boys swear that his basement at Amps and Ramps is haunted. Then they’re taking us to Crazy Georges bridge! I’m so excited!
I think it's sad that...
I’ve been calling out for resources for four years at my youth group, but every time they give me any informations it’s like they’re trying to prove something. I wasn’t wanting their point, I wanted truth. No women youth leader has ever taught us on purity, what it means, all types of purity…no woman in the past four years has done that. Last night, Tony gave me a...
I'm setting out to live more purely in my...
I finally got
the tumblr app to work on my phone!
