I think you could fall in love with anyone if you saw the parts of them no one else gets to see. Like if you followed them around invisibly for a day and saw them crying in their bed at night or singing in the shower or humming quietly to themselves as they make a sandwich or even just walking along the street. And even if they were really weird and had no friends at school, I think, after seeing them at their most vulnerable, you wouldn’t be able to help falling in love with them.
“Sometimes I get scared that people will think I’m better than I am-that I have answers. They aren’t mine. They have been whispered to me in the dark, in the broken places. And I am doing my best to shout them in the daylight. But not so that anyone will think I have them-simply to be one more hopeless person declaring that they have found their hope.”—Lauren Dubinsky (via sinkingstoneburningbridge)
The past few days have been pretty good. All I’ve been doing is working and sleeping. And watching Anime with the best friend. God is good as always. Today was a bit of an off day. I’m just emotional, but I always learn more about myself and who Christ wants me to be. I have school and work all this week. I’m probably going to be super tired. It’s good though. God is so beautiful.
What you are going through might be "spiritual warfare, pure and simple. Something great and amazing must be standing on the other side of these dark times, otherwise, the enemy wouldn't work so hard to discourage you."
Today as I wake up early to laundry and go buy make-up I am thankful. I have to work, but my family moved up lunch for me. I am thankful for my grandparents. I am thankful that I have a place to sleep and food to eat. I am thankful that I had to 4 places to pick from today….and when I had to decline all because of work they came up with the idea of brunch on the day I’m off. I am thankful for God seeking people in my life. I am thankful for life it’s self today. I am just really thankful
Last night one of the table at work gave my manager 20.00 and told him to put it towards a family (obviously not wealthy). They’re meal was like 23.33. They paid 3.33. I am thankful for people like that.
“Nothing is won by force. I choose to be gentle. If I raise my voice may it be only in praise. If I clench my fist, may it be only in prayer. If I make a demand, may it be only of myself.”—Max Lucado (When God Whispers Your Name)
“Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Do not cast me from your presence or take your Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.”—Psalm 51:10-12 (via the-potters-clay)
“You said you came for the lame,
I’m the lamest
I made a mess you say you’ll erase it,
I’ll take it
You said you came for the lame,
I’m the lamest
I broke my life, but you say you’ll replace it,
I’ll take it.”—Lecrae (via thegeorge23)
Place me like a seal over your heart, like a seal on your arm; for love is as strong as death, its jealousy unyielding as the grave. It burns like blazing fire, like a mighty flame. Song of Solomon 8:6
Be gracious to me, O God, according to Your lovingkindness; According to the greatness of Your compassion blot out my transgressions. Wash me thoroughly from my iniquity And cleanse me from my sin. For I know my transgressions, And my sin is ever before me. Against You, You only, I have sinned And done what is evil in Your sight, So that You are justified when You speak
Behold, I was brought forth in iniquity, And in sin my mother conceived me. Behold, You desire truth in the innermost being, And in the hidden part You will make me know wisdom. Purify me with hyssop, and I shall be clean; Wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow. Hide Your face from my sins And blot out all my iniquities. Create in me a clean heart, O God, And renew a steadfast spirit within me. Do not cast me away from Your presence And do not take Your Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of Your salvation And sustain me with a willing spirit. Then I will teach transgressors Your ways, And sinners will be converted to You. Deliver me from bloodguiltiness, O God, the God of my salvation; Then my tongue will joyfully sing of Your righteousness. O Lord, open my lips, That my mouth may declare Your praise. For You do not delight in sacrifice, otherwise I would give it; You are not pleased with burnt offering. The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; A broken and a contrite heart, O God, You will not despise.
God is so good. Really. Tonight I prayed that God would reveal in my heart the things that hold me back from truly healing, truly growing in Him. Because I’ve felt at a halt the past few weeks. So of course after a bit of meditation and worship I understood that it was bitterness. That the past day I had been in my flesh, bitter, about nonsense. Honestly, at the time of bitterness I didn’t see the situation as nonsense, but I still had not thought the situation and circumstances out. The Lord really laid it on my heart to apologize to the person I held most of my bitterness to. I’m really satisfied tonight. I pray it lingers into my day tomorrow and continues as I continue to seek Him. My friendship is healed, my oh so cherished friendship. God is good. He is beautiful. My life is a testimony of the goodness of God. I am so blessed. So now I continue on the path of believing and following Christ. I even take it step further. I pursue the One that has pursued me before my time. I find full satisfaction in my God and He then will lead me to the places He knows I’m best suited for. God is good. That’s all I can really say. Goodness has power. Goodness is lacked in this world, but the Lord is good. pure. holy. righteous. worthy. Thank you Lord for your love. your heart. your presence that I love. Thank you for an amazing friendship, with an amazing boy, and our testimony. Thank you for love and for guidance in that love. Thank you for strength. Thank you for never making the burden lighter, just my strength greater. Lord, you are love. I thank you for that perfect love.
“If the world hates you, keep in mind that it hated me first. If you belonged to the world, it would love you as its own. As it is, you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world. That is why the world hates you. If they persecuted me, they will persecute you.”— John 15:18-20 (via journeytoanewcreation)
I have went to school and worked. Honestly I have had time for nothing else. I started work today by myself, no more training. I love it. I’m super excited about God is doing in my life. I don’t have school any this next week so all I’m doing is working. I have tomorrow and Monday off, then Saturday. I work five days, good shifts. I made alright tips today. We weren’t that busy and there were eight of us. Lame. this next week should be good though. God has blessed me. Monday I am hopefully meeting with Jac and a leader at Church. We need it. I’m excited. :) Ya, life is good. growing is happening. I love the job I love school